Wednesday, December 11, 2013

Checklists.


Make checklist for my stuff, check. Make even longer checklist for the dog’s stuff, check. Make checklist for stuff I’ll need on the plane, check. Find new checking marker for more satisfied checking, check.

Shoe pair one, shoe pair two, and shoe pair three, check. Shirts, check. Back-up shirt, check. Coat, check. Running pants, check. Shorts, check. Back-up pants, check. Bathroom supplies, check. Double check for toothbrush, check. Socks, underwear, belts, unnecessary accessories just incase, check. Clothing, completed (big check).

Back on track coat, check. Fuzzy show leash, check. Harness, check. Collar, check. Treats, check. Dog food day one, dog food day two, dog food day three, check. Emergency medicine, just incase, check. Hotel crate, check. Show crate, check. Bedding, check. Show tarp, check. Video camera, check. Zillions of poop bags, check. Bedtime biscuits, check. Whimzy’s bedtime dragon toy, check. Dog, check. Food and water bowls, still not packed…no check.

Travel documents, check. Phone charger, check. Phone, check. Ipad, check. Camera, check. Leash, check. Dog travel carrier, check. Purse, check. Homework that I won’t be doing on the plane, but it makes Diane happy to think I might, check. Plane supplies, completed (big check).

Triple check for toothbrush, check. Double check all checklists, che… crap… forgot my pjs. Pack pjs, check. Double check all checklists, chec… crap… forgot the dog bowls. Finally pack dog bowls, check. Double check all checklists, check. Panic that I may have still forgotten something important, check. Prepare to cope with the fact that I forgot something at home even with all the checking, check. 


 Game face, check.

Saturday, November 16, 2013

Walkthroughs for Dummies

Walkthroughs are a complex system of flowing traffic patterns around the course, during these 8 minutes you may encounter some of the following scenarios and individuals. 
Beware all.

The Cluster: typically a group of 4-10 people obsessively walking a tight section of the course, completely unavoidable and HIGHLY frustrating. Beware, don't get too close or you may be absorbed into the pack.

Chatty Cathys: those individuals who treat walkthroughs as a social gathering, usually upbeat, loud and enjoying time with their fellow competitors on course. If you are easily distracted, like me, avoid chatty cathys at all costs, or before you know it those 8 minutes will be up!!

The Stompers: the competitors who, frankly, take agility WAY to seriously sometimes. Can be seen stomping around the course, walking aggressively through the crowds and forgetting their manners along the way. These people aren't afraid to shoulder check you, and they aren't stopping to apologize. 
*Protective gear advised for interaction with stompers*

The Private Lesson: student(s) and instructor planted in the middle of the course discussing a handling move or sequence. Often causes obstruction in walk through traffic.

The Complainers: seem to find a problem with every turn, tunnel entrance, and course that could possibly exist. Feel entitled to their complaints, but honestly my complaint is all the complaining. Beware this negativity, it's contagious!

The Philosophers: those overly exploratory handlers who think out every possible handling plan from rear crosses to blinds, consider jumping the tunnel to get to their front cross faster, hell perhaps a cart wheel if it sets up the correct line. Who knows what they'll actually end up running...warning may inspire slightly insane handling plans, approach with caution.

"Got it" Walkers: the oddly impressive individuals who walk a course twice and then leave the walkthrough with their plan already perfected...leaving you to wonder how the heck they don't get lost during their actual run because you know you wouldn't get past jump 6 without the FULL 8 minutes. *Do not attempt this at home*

"Wing it" Non-Walkers: even more impressive that "Got it" Walkers, the individuals who miss their walkthrough, memorize the course outside the ring, typically with a shortened time limit, and still don't get lost. With a combination of dumb luck and skill, these handlers always manage to pull something out of their ass last minute. 
*REALLY, do not attempt this at home*

Ipod-ites: tunes turned up high, lost in the world of music while they memorize their plan. Totally on autopilot, very difficult to get their attention, and oblivious to agility traffic patterns, but rarely cause obstructions. Occasionally grumpy when you interrupt their jam, advised that you do not continually disturb ipod-ites.

Permit Holders: *Danger* *Danger* Newbies on coures! New to walkthroughs, and perhaps new to more complicated courses, newbies often break all walkthrough traffic laws. Turning around mid-course, randomly stopping to stare at something, cutting people off unintentionally, generally annoying but tolerable because face it...we've all been there. 


**This is intended to be light-hearted, so please don't be offended. I myself have been all of these at least once in my time as an agility competitor :)

Saturday, November 9, 2013

Caution Contagious: Cursing on Course

With several new outbreaks recorded this week on the Mid-Atlantic agility trial scene, cursing on course is an epidemic sweeping through our community. This contagion seems to be spreading quickly, it is advised all trial attendees stay on the lookout for infected competitors.

Symptoms include: uncontrollable sporadic foul language, laughing from the crowd, possible embarrassment, and the inevitable whistle.


Ranging from the "Oh-Shit"s to Damn-It-itis, a cursing on course infection can be hard to cure and will need many sessions of treatment. There currently is no available vaccine for cursing on course, and anyone can be susceptible. While there is no guaranteed protection from contracting a cursing on course infection, certain precautions can be taken to reduce risk. Alternate words, yelling "Oh sugar", "Drat", etc., improves chances of avoiding an outburst. Whisper, quiet curse words are curse words that keep you in the ring to finish your run. Duct tape, applied each run over mouth can help prevent foul language outbursts mid-run, because as we all know, duct tape fixes everything.

Whimzy says "Stop and think, before you accidentally yell profanity across the agility ring loud enough for the judge and spectators (on the other side of the building) to hear." 

Monday, October 21, 2013

The Magic of Evaporation

How heavy is a glass of water?
This question does not rely on the actual weight of the water, the answer lies within time. The longer you hold the glass of water the heavier it will appear; holding the glass for a minute is no problem, but hold it for a few hours or a day? The glass of water will seem much heavier and put more strain on you.

Like that cup of water, the weight of stress bares down harder the longer you hold onto it. Recently I've found myself holding a glass, okay more like lugging around a bucket, of absolutely uncontrollable stress. The kind of pressure life throws at you when it wants you to get your ass moving now, and yet, I, like many I'm sure, have simply been staring at all that water thinking about how I wish someone would just pull the plug so it would all just spiral away; out of sight, out of mind, right? But the drain is clogged full of worries and over thought thoughts... unfortunately I know no plumbers for this particular type of situation. Trying to get things done while holding a glass of water is rather impossible, you see. It spills, distracts you, consumes your attention, and causes the glass to over flow with worrying about those worries in the cup swirling dangerously close to the lip.

Worrying is like sitting in a rocking chair. It gives you something to do but it doesn't get you anywhere.


Life demands constant motion, standing still simply get's you nowhere. Point is, for progress forward motion is required, but I've found I can't run forward while trying to balance that bucket. As much as I'd be thrilled to just dump out the water and sail away hakuna matata style, I'm afraid I wouldn't be able to keep my head above water in that sort of situation. Simply setting the water down, placing the worries aside does, however, allow for improvement. We all know water is an important part of survival, likewise, stress is an important part of life. But you wouldn't throw yourself into the deep end simply because you were thirsty, would you? I find taking a sip of stress is enough to get me moving, but I leave the glass behind. 

It's funny, I tend to find that if I just leave the water alone, it disappears all on its own. 

Thursday, October 10, 2013

We: A Journey I Will Never Forget

Two years down a road I never thought I would travel, looking back, this has to be one of the best decisions I've ever made. Two years ago, I started working with a special dog. At first, we had trouble staying in sync. We had trouble trying to make time. We had trouble trying to stay focused. We were scared of the judge. We couldn't find out weave entries. We didn't always like to take the jumps.

Now I say "we" because Nikki and I are a team. All of our successes, all of our failures, we share. All of the issues we've overcome are a combined effort, this is a journey we take together. I've come to find many people in this sport, to whom the dog is not an equal. When something goes wrong, it's the dog's fault. When something goes right, it's the handler/trainer's success alone. I'm so proud to say that on our journey together Nikki and I really have become a team, if nothing else comes from our time together our bond will be something I will always cherish. All the lessons we've learned, and with so many ups and downs along the way, every moment has been truly worth it. There was once a time when Nikki didn't enjoy the game, I'm so very happy to say that now I can see her having as much fun as I am. Her eyes light up when we run and she is excited to go in the ring with me. We are now half way to a PACH. We are *almost* qualified for AKC 2014 Nationals. We have perfect weekends. We stay focused on course. We take all the jumps, sometimes extra for fun. 
We love the game.

Thank you so much Nikki, for letting me be part of this team, it has challenged me in so many ways, and you have made me a better person.

Friday, August 16, 2013

I wanna be like you.

Not too long ago I had a little girl tell me that she wanted to be just like me.


I know what my reaction should have been, "Aww, how sweet, thank you." or something along those lines...but honestly my first thought was "Why?". Why in the world would anyone want to be like me, for a long time I didn't even want to be like me. It's funny, I'm almost positive that at some point in time we all want to be like someone else; either because we seem inferior or because they seem superior. I once wanted to be all sorts of people, for all different reasons. Yet, now I find I'm proud of who I am and who I will become, and I know who I once was and where I've come from. So I fail to see why anyone would ever want to be like me. There already is a me, a me that's just like me.
So when that little girl told me she wanted to be just like me, I asked her why... "Why be like me if you could be like you?"

Someone new, someone the world has never seen before, someone who can do incredible things. Trying to be like someone else is like trying to be normal. I've spent most of my life now being abnormal, and I've found its people who are different who make a difference. I hope that one day that little girl is proud to be different and I hope she makes a difference. I hope that anyone who's ever wanted to be someone becomes the someone that they were all along.



Normal isn't something to aspire to, it's something to get away from. 


Tuesday, August 6, 2013

Puzzling.

We are always in such a rush, always on our way to the next thing with somewhere to be. We never slow down for anyone or anything, I  guess that's just another reason why we are the human race.




I feel as though we spend so much time looking forward, at what's next, that sometimes we over look what we are working on today. Now, I'm always for looking at the "big picture", but part of that is understanding how each day of the journey comes together. You can't put a puzzle together by simply staring at the finished product on the box, you have to examine each piece and discover the unique connection it shares with the others. All the progress and all the mistakes are part of building the future we want ourselves to live into. More than ever I feel as though each dog I encounter is simply another puzzle to be pieced together. It takes time, patience, and a solid view of the "big picture" to try and figure out how all those strange shapes can come together to form something so beautiful. 

Saturday, August 3, 2013

Whimzy's Journey


I am simply beyond in love with this creature. 

I spent a long time wondering about our future together when she was younger, wondering where we would go, how we would evolve as a team...but I've found over the past year that with Whimzy, it isn't about planning out a big complicated path to success. With her everything just falls into place when it needs to, we can take it one course at a time. No matter how many faults we earn on any given course it never impacts how we do on the next course. Every step we take together I'm thrilled to spend with such a special little girl, I'm not sure where we are going or how fast we will get there...but this is a journey worth taking. 



Sunday, July 28, 2013

European Open: Finals

Such an unforgettable day. Got to watch several amazing USA Teams run their asses off pushing in finals, and with smooth runs and great results! Simply amazing to watch our teammate Roseanne smoke Large dog individual Finals with Strafe and win a silver medal. Also the USA Midi Team that made finals (Britain and Jen Pinder, John Nys and Rush, Diane Goodspeed and Demon, Maureen Waldron and Mickle) finished 5th in finals with several amazing runs on a wicked hard 4 section Team Finals course!! 

As for miss turtle, she amazed me once again. We made finals as top pointed USA dog along with our small dog teammates, Laura Dolan and Race and Heidi Vania with Ice (who both won their spot in finals in the individual jumpers round). 5 small faults, but the run felt fantastic. I can never complain about a run where my handling comes together with Jenna so well. She was a superstar, finishing 27th overall and as the top USA individual mini dog. 

Honestly this year with her has simply left me speechless... She has come so far and taken me place I only dreamed of being a reality the very distant future. We may not be the fastest, and we may not be the cleanest. Sure we make mistakes, some our hers and most (okay almost all) are mine. But at the end of the day I always feel like we've given it all we've got. We might not be the best, but we will always strive to be the best that we can be, and that's all I really want in the end :) 


(Photo By: Carrie Deyoung, Jenna and I during our individual standard run from Saturday)

Friday, July 26, 2013

European Open Day 1

Wow. Wow. Wow. What an incredible day, despite some challenging courses the USA Teams really held their own and put down some fantastic runs. 

As for Jenna and Demon, they both had great runs today. Jenna went clean in the team agility (standard) round with a decent time and got an E in the morning in Team Jumpers, to no fault of her own. Bad bad handler decided to go to the back side of #19 instead of taking it the right direction. Small oops, but I was still thrilled with Jenna's performance today. She was flawless :) Mr. Demon picked up the same backside off course in jumpers that I sent Jenna too, but came back for a great standard run posting the 3rd clean time of his USA Midi Team in the afternoon. 


Honestly I am thrilled with today, it was so much fun. So excited to run again tomorrow and then cheer on all my fellow teammates in Finals on Sunday! Most importantly though, I have a new wonderful list of skills to train on both Jenna and Whimzy for next years Tryouts and *hopefully* International competition(s). Just another step in the journey, but this weekend will be one of the most unforgettable.    



Two of my USA Teammates and I before opening ceremony yesterday. (me, Kimberly Line-Berget, and Denise Kilpatrick) Photo by: Anne Stocum, our fourth team member :) 

Sunday, July 21, 2013

Belgium: Day 1

Landed this morning, around 7 Brussels time, easy flight. Once again I'm amazed at how well Jenna handles long distance travel. She is becoming a pro at getting through airports and dealing with all the people. Although it is definitely a tiring experience for her (she's currently passed out and snoring at the edge of my bed, happy to be in air conditioning). Some rest these next few days will do her and Demon well. Surprisingly enough Demon traveled just as well and is perky eyed and happy to be walking around. Quite impressive for an eleven year old. It's sad to think that this will be his last trip overseas, his last time representing the United States, and perhaps even some of his last runs ever. He certainly is incredible though, no one believes me anymore when I tell them about how he used to walk in the ring. Or how he refused to weave all through open, and when electronic timers were first used he was terrified of them. I remember running him at the Junior Incredible Dog Challenge back in 2004(?). I was about 7 and he was just over 2, he spent the entire morning hiding under Diane's chair because the loud speakers freaked him out. Back then I could have never imagined that little dog running his heart out with hundreds of people screaming, music playing, air horns blaring without even twitching an ear. 

It'll be sad to see him retire, but at least for now he gets to enjoy traveling around Northern Europe once again. Currently we are in Waterloo, headed over to the site tomorrow afternoon. Excited to see the battlefield here tomorrow though, put some of the AP European History knowledge to use. 

Wednesday, July 17, 2013

Belgium Bound

It's not where you place, it's how hard you worked to get there.

With only a few days left till take off, there isn't much left to do but pack. The planning, the preparation, the training is all over now. This is the stage where it becomes do or die. Either you win or you lose. It's that simple. As a team we go to make our country proud, but as individuals we all step to the line with our own goals. The true test isn't whether we can hold our own, but whether we can hold our heads high knowing we gave it our all. If we missed our goals it wasn't because we gave up. It's knowing that regardless of the bars, the missed contacts, the off courses, that we have succeeded in taking something away from this experience... because as with any competition true success is simply learning something new. 


As an individual embarking on another leg of the journey I share with Jenna, my only goal is to remember why I walk to the line. I walk to the line to once again play with my little girl, the dog who has been with me through so much, who has taken me to far away places that I never imagined possible. And then we run to be the best that we can be.



Friday, July 5, 2013

Thank you.

Dear Whimzy,

Thank you for always putting up with my shenanigans. Thank you for challenging me in new ways. Thank you for not always being “easy”. Thank you for keeping me on my toes. Thank you for giving me all your sheltie-tude sass when I need a laugh. Thank you for letting me try new things. Thank you for embracing my weirdness. Thank you for always sticking around, even when the going gets tough. Thank you for taking off courses. Thank you for knocking bars. Thank you for spinning, jumping off the table, creeping on the start line, and breaking your contacts. Thank you for showing me when I’ve made a mistake. Thank you for showing me how to be better at what I love. Thank you for cuddling. Thank you for being my running partner. Thank you for always being you. Thank you for all the things you’ve taught me. Thank you, in advanced, for the things you still have to show me. Thank you for giving me new opportunities. Thank you for always smiling. Thank you for the QQs and the NQs. Thank you for embarrassing me. Thank you for teaching me to be a good sport. Thank you for understanding me. Thank you for your unconditional love. Thank you for making agility fun no matter what.


Thank you from the bottom of my heart, from head to toe, I don’t know what I would do without you, darling.  

Sincerely,

Kathleen.

Saturday, June 29, 2013

Playing for Pure Joy.

Tonight, looking at my girls I can’t help but think about how much they really mean to me. It’s almost an unreal feeling; even without agility I couldn't imagine not having them in my life. And this reminded me of a conversation I once had a few years ago with Diane…and that night she put it really well; everything I will do in the agility world for basically the rest of my life will be because of Jenna and Whimzy.


On their little tiny shoulders rests my entire future. Kind of scary when you think about it, but it’s true. Sure my goals for them and expectations of my abilities are always set just above our reach, but jumping is half the fun. Taking that risks, going for it, how can we not? But going too far, no longer caring about the dogs is when agility becomes pointless. In my books you play for them or have no right to play at all. My girls will forever be more valuable than any award we ever win, any honor we get, any record we break, anything that I accomplish because of them…it’s all just bonus. The real joy in the sport isn't winning a pretty blue ribbon, or taking home a trophy. It's seeing that look on your dog's face at the end of the run, that smile that says "I love playing this game with you." Every time I see that look on their faces, my heart just melts. I'm so grateful that I can share such a wonderful sport with these creatures that are so special to me. 

"Do you know what my favorite part of the game is? 
The opportunity to play."


My girls <3 

Friday, June 28, 2013

Taking a Bite Out of Life

As I sit here, enjoying an ice pop, I’m starting to wonder when my life stopped making sense. Or rather if it ever did….okay let’s be real, it never did, it’s just a bit more evident now. While I’m both baffled by my own journey, and enjoy befuddling others along the way, it seems as though a few wonderful coincidences have slowly fallen into place in the path in front of me. This means, adventuring…and a lot of it. Now I’m not always sure how the cookie is going to crumble, but I do know that I really love cookies. So why not take a big bite out of life?


I have to say I’m starting to get addicted to this all this adventuring as well, the places my little heartlakes have taken me in just the past week is incredible, and that’s just the icing on the cake. Now I know we have a ways to go, and don’t quite know where we are adventuring too, but I don’t think we’ll be turning around any time soon. It’s funny though, every time we hit a fork in the road it’s not a matter of which path leads to success because success isn’t something you can choose. Heading into the unknown I know that no matter what we come to face we will do everything possible to succeed…granted adventures aren’t really about success at all. They’re about enjoying the ride, and being able to take something out of each experience…even if you find you’ve bitten off more than you can chew. Sometimes it’s best to swallow your pride, avoid talking with your mouth full, and just learn to take smaller bites in the future. Not every ending to our adventures will be sweet, but even when we get a sour bit of luck I know I can always cleanse my palette and try again.


Now I’d hate to eat and run, so here’s something to chew on for a bit.

If you aren't going all the way, why go at all?

Sunday, June 23, 2013

USA Team Practice Day 2

Honestly this has been one of the most educational days of my 13 years in the sport. We ran some really fantastically wicked courses, Jenna was a superstar (& clean) on almost all of them as always, but beyond handling and training I got a lesson on what makes Jenna tick. Somethings I had no idea about, and now understanding how she functions and her body works I feel like this is a new beginning for us. She is only 6, which is still young, and I'm hoping the future will be very different for both of us. 

In addition to shocking explanations about miss turtle dog Jenna,we also spent some great time with friends, new and old. I'm so excited to be heading to Europe with such a fun group of people, and they are all such amazing handlers too!! Goodness simply watching everyone run was fascinating and education, being able to break things down and really discuss the ins & outs of handling on a large scale. I definitely have a few things I'll be taking home to train in the yard, and hopefully perfect with my girls this summer. Super pumped for tomorrow!!! :)

Saturday, June 22, 2013

USA Team Practice Day 1

Just a quick update before bed. While the day started out unfortunately with a busted car window and stolen wallet, once we got to practice it turned around. Jenna put down 2 solid runs on the courses we ran late this afternoon after a team meeting. Really happy with how her international foundation is holding up so far this year with rather little maintenance. Jenna seemed a bit stiff in the back after all our travelling, but other than that she is once again isn’t phased in the slightest by long distance travel. I always take for granted how well she travels, really its amazing that she stays so health and happy no matter where we are *knocks on wood* 


Love my little turtle, she is such a trooper! :) Looking forward to a full ten hours of course work tomorrow with the rest of the team!

Also, if you live in the NJ/PA/NY area and are interested in purchasing a USA Team Supporter Shirt for 2013 please comment on my fb or contact me by the end of the weekend. We are bringing back shirts and can pick one up for you to buy. Shirts are $20 each, unisex sizes. Thank you for supporting the AKC USA Agility Team!!! :) 



Tuesday, June 18, 2013

Head in the Clouds.


Sometimes dreams seem too good to be true, you stick your head up in the clouds and take a look around at everything that could be...but everyone's always said that being stuck there is wrong. So you fall back to earth.

Welcome to reality.



But it isn't really...for reality doesn't have to be absolute; it is interdependent with your actions. Your reality depends solely on what you make of it; the "realistic" goals others set for you will always fall just short of the fairy tale version of Cloud 9 in your mind. Personally, I don't mind living with my head in the clouds, sure everything gets foggy every now and then, and it is awfully bright...but then again the future is too, so I suppose that's fitting more than anything. Certainly better than living with your head in the sand. The best part of it all is that no one can tell me what I can't do, I don't have to listen to people listing the "problems" in life, or tell me now impossible everything is, and always will be.

Life is not a problem to be solved, but a reality to be experienced.

The reality people keep ranting on about is entirely based around problems. Think about it, no one ever welcomes you to reality when something good happens. Reality is entirely negative, it is obstacles, and statistics and all the things standing in your way wrapped up in one. Knowing that, why anyone would want to be realistic is beyond me. Perhaps my head isn't screwed on quite right, maybe I'm delusional...maybe I'll never know. But at least for me, reality will always seem to be an illusion, a trick, that other people fool you into believing. It keeps you firmly on the ground... with no way of shooting for the stars, or taking a leap of faith, you can't even pop your head into the clouds to imagine "What-if?". Reality should give you wings, like red-bull only without all the caffeine.


Don't let someone else's opinion of you become your reality.


Saturday, June 15, 2013

USDAA Mid-Atlantic Regional Champions

What can I say? Jenna never ceases to amaze me...

Jenna and Trixie, an English Cocker Spaniel handled by Blake Rivas, won the 2013 PVP Team Championships. The first ever Junior Handler Team to win a USDAA Team Championship, and to top it all off Jenna won Overall Top 12" dog. 



Honestly in this journey, in this year, I've begun to discover what Jenna and I are really capable of. There have been so many opportunities that I simply counted us out for because I never believed in the team.  I always believed that I could handle clean, and that Jenna would do her job...but something was missing. I feel as though my attitude towards competition has been altered... I'm not sure what did it, or if I'm just imagining it. But this year has already been so incredible, and I don't think thanking Jenna a hundred-thousand times would ever be enough to say how grateful I am for her sticking by me through the last 6 years. 


USDAA Mid-Atlantic Regionals: Day 1

Best part of any competition, when the stress sets in and your nerves go on end. It's when handling and skills become second to simply holding it together. It isn't a matter of "can you" anymore. You can....but will you keep your head? 

Ended the first day of USDAA Mid-Atlanitc Regionals sitting in 3rd place for team with Jenna and Trixie putting down 4 solid runs throughout the day. Could no be more thrilled with how the girlies did, and today we run Team relay for a shot at the podium. Honestly this is my favorite type of situation, stakes are high, lots to lose, but no matter what the final results come out to be the journey to where we are now was unforgettably fun. 

Wednesday, June 12, 2013

Underestimating the opponent.

Never underestimate your opponent.

Have you ever looked at a course and thought “oh shit, this is going to be wicked hard.”? Whether that statement is said with trembling fear or you say it like me, with a sick sense of excitement, I think we have all muttered something of that variety under our breaths while looking at a course map. Okay now what about the opposite? Ever looked at a course and thought “Wow, this is so simple! It’ll be easy to run clean.”? I have, and to be completely honest I do not put tons of effort towards the planning and memorization of these courses. I’m not sure if I’m the only one who gets lackadaisical when they see a circle, but I always relax when I see something that doesn’t “look” necessarily challenging. 

So tonight I was training on a very steeplechase/T2B style course. Small challenges surrounded by miles of wicked fast lines…okay well not miles, but at least a hundred yards or so. I focused on the challenges; serp this, blind here, don’t role out of the front until she’s rotated, blah blah blah…and I figured I could just take off down the straight line, decelerate turn and go around this simple circle of obstacles without a problem. Well holy fudge nuggets was I wrong or what… I’m not sure what I missed when I was walking the course that made me think that straight line into a circle was going to be “easy”, but I didn’t even attempt to handle it until I was RIGHT on top of the jumps realizing something had gone wrong. Three failed attempt later, I finally told Whimzy to go play in the pool so I could go look at the line again. I ended up shaping the straight line with a blind-rear combo and then rearing the a-frame, instead of "oh I'll just run this way and Whimzy will pick up all the jumps." Duh, Kathleen, of course that was a dumb plan.

Now this obviously isn’t the first time I’ve NQ’d in the backyard, I do that like 5 times minimum every training session. But it was interesting to realize my only real mistake was underestimating my opponent. It’s never good to over think a course and stress over how challenging it is, but the opposite is also true. No matter what dog you are running, looking at a course and judging it as simple before you really dissect the handling needed to get you through the course is equally as unwise.

Perhaps I’m the only one who has run into this issue because for some reason I’m incapable of proper course assessment, or ya know I could just be an idiot and the lesson I just got a refresher in is obvious to everyone. Who knows, but I’d like to think that from tonight I’ll remember to look at each course with an equally calm approach, with precise direct handling planned for each section no matter how "easy" it looks. 


Work every foot. 

Wednesday, June 5, 2013

Walking Off: who really needs a "time out"?


The practice of walking a dog off course started years ago as a simple way to remove a dog from an overly stimulating situation, in which there was no way to continue the course without causing further damage to your foundation. I’ve walked my dogs off in this manner many times, particularly when the dog gets so high in the ring that it is impossible to get them through the rest of the course. Personally, I don’t see anything wrong with calmly excusing yourself from the ring for this type of issue. But more recently, removing the dog from the ring has become more and more of a punishment. Dogs flipped upside down, carried or dragged out by their collars, and even people storming out of the ring without their dogs, which can be considered abandonment, just in case you weren’t aware. There is no purpose, it’s not an “effective training tool”, and it’s based entirely on the handler’s temper getting out of hand. I know we can all get emotional about our runs, good or bad, but in the end agility is a game. Stomping your feet at a knocked bar or having a screaming match with your dog after an off course is completely unacceptable.

And it isn’t just those “problem” dogs that are getting hauled of the course. It’s consistent, honest dogs too, …which honestly I find beyond ridiculous.  Dogs are dogs; they are allowed to make mistakes once in a while. People make up excuses that their dog was too excited, or needed a “time-out”, when really it’s the handlers who need to spend some time thinking about their actions.

So maybe next time, before hauling your “bad, bad, bad dog” off the course, you should remember that 99% of faults on course are caused by handler error.

Tuesday, June 4, 2013

Just be.

A man once told the Buddha,
“I want happiness.”

The Buddha replied,
“First remove the ‘I’, that’s ego.
Then remove ‘want’, that’s desire.

And now all you are left with is
Happiness.”

Sometimes it takes realizing what was there all along, to get what you’ve always wanted.

In some ways we are all “wannabes”, I know I am. There are things that I have always, always wanted to be. But when you spend so much time simply wanting something, you end up putting distance between yourself and your goal. I think there are times, when used appropriately, that living in the future becomes the best way to reach the future you want.

Extraordinary people live their lives backwards; they create a future and then live into it.

Rather than being a wannabe, just be. 
If you can look at yourself and say that you’ve already accomplished all of your wildest dreams…you eliminate self-doubt. If you can make yourself believe it, you will believe in yourself. It sounds so simple, doesn’t it? And yet, with our greatest enemies often living between our own two ears, it can make such an impact on the future...




Thursday, May 30, 2013

Something old, something new, something borrowed, something blue.

It’s that childhood locket dangling over the white lace, the bride herself scented with a custom bridal perfume, with the groom carry grandfather’s pocket watch, and the bride’s delicate fingers wrapped tightly around the fistful of hydrangea, delphinium, and white lilies. That’s something old, something new, something borrowed, something blue.

While that wedding tradition rhyme is constantly used by zillions of brides, it is something we agility folk are slowly losing our grip on, and I'm not quite sure we should be tossing away the bouquet so soon. We seem to be perfectly fine with something new and something borrowed, the majority of handlers are open to trying new moves, training more complex courses, and incorporating new training methods into their routines. That’s part of the evolution of the sport. But we are letting go of the old, which isn’t always ideal. I am the first one to say I love all those newfangled, fancy agility moves we are all slowly experimenting with, trying new things is never bad. And yet, similarly it doesn’t hurt to K.I.S.S, keep it simple and stupid. I don’t think there will ever be a combination of handling skills that could ever prove more useful to me, for my dogs, than the basic front cross and rear cross. They are the foundations for handling at a more complex level, they teach people how to read lines, execute, and plan effectively for their own dog’s preferences. Personally I don’t think one can progress as a handler until they understand the principles of good, old-fashioned, basic handling. Really though it comes down to a balance of the new and old; applying the most effective skills we have to each course, whether it be a ketschker or a pull and flip rear cross. I just hope I can always keep the tradition going with my own handling...remembering the old, trying the new, and never being afraid to borrow. 

And hey, if you have something new, something old, and something borrowed, something blue is bound to follow. 



Sunday, May 26, 2013

Uncomfortable Moments...

In agility, even when it seems like nothing is going your way, there is something positive to take from the experience. Because whether you like those moments or not they will stick with you forever. Sure it won’t always be easy to accept those not so pretty runs, or to look back and laugh at all your embarrassing moments, but the sooner you come to terms with the past the sooner you can enjoy the present and look forward to the future.  Being able to brush off the bad runs, laugh at your mistakes, and just keep moving, simply makes agility so much more fun.

Personally there are moments in my career that seemed like the end of the world when they happened, but now looking back, I think they are simply hysterical. And being able to look at these moments puts everything else in perspective. For example:


1.       2011 AKC Agility Nationals, on Thursday the AKC was kind enough to give the competitors a demo run in the brand new “Time 2 Beat” class that we would be soon seeing at our local shows. I was in Ring 2, in the main arena of course, with Jenna, I was so nervous I could barely keep my hands from shaking. Honestly I’m not sure why I was so wired that weekend, but I was, and it did not help my performance on course at all. About half way through that T2B course, just off the a-frame, I sent Jenna out to pick up a jump and I took off for a front 2 obstacles down the line. I was being good, keeping my eyes on my dog, and I turned my head to check where I was going for just a second, and just in time to greet the giant white Eukanuba wing with my face. I smacked into the jump, I grabbed it and spun to keep from landing on it. But of course this was the panel jump, so about 4 bars went flying in every direction possible… Jenna and I were then excused from the ring as the judge and ring crew reconstructed the jump I had annihilated. Just a fantastic start to my nationals.

2.       For this we will go back a little further in time, 2004… I was about 7 years old, running my yellow fluffy poof ball of a Lhasa Apso, Jack, in Open 12”. Just before my Open Jumpers run I had to go to the bathroom, this was of course an outdoor show, because back then indoor shows were very rare. So for those of you who don’t know, this means port-a-potties. I walked down the row and selected a door that displayed a little green “Vacant” sign and yanked open the door. The port-a-potty was not in fact vacant; it was occupied by my Open Jumpers judge. Let’s just say he was less than thrilled to see me, and I was beyond horrified to see him *pants up, I think? Honestly can’t remember…and that’s okay with me*. Needless to say I now knock, always, no matter what the sign says.

3.       When I was 9, I was back in Open again, this time with Kayla, my mother’s first MACH border collie. In our first Open Jumpers run, I did a 2 jump lead out and was just even with the ring crew. I released Kayla; she took both jumps, visited the ring crew and bolted out of the ring. Leaving me standing in the middle of the ring alone, as I watched her run around the building looking for my mom. I then cried and hid in crate for the rest of the day, well until Diane bought me a stuffed animal westie from one of the vendors. Stuffed animals simply make everything better.

4.       Unfortunately Kayla leaving the ring is not the worst memory I have with her… on several occasions, particularly after the weave poles, Kayla would run off into the corner of the ring, squat and poop. Then, as if pooping weren’t enough, she would also run out of the ring. Diane used to tie a poop bag around my wrist so I would always have one in case she did. And she almost always did…

5.       Okay this memory isn’t exactly one I can laugh at yet, but it was a very good life lesson. I was in excellent standard with Jenna, and for those of you who don’t know Jenna and I have been battling contact issues since forever. This particular run was dreadful, Jenna jumped all three contacts, ignored my front cross to take an off course tunnel, jumped off the table before the count was over, and at the end of the run I was a less than happy 14 year old. I didn’t yell, I didn’t tell Jenna she had been “bad” or “naughty”, I simply asked her to come, so I could put her leash on. She listened, and we were on our way out of the ring when I heard the judge whistle me and ask me to come back into the center of the ring. She then yelled at me for a good 3 minutes, explaining to me how inappropriate my behavior was, and that if she ever saw me treat my dog that poorly again she would write me up. I took Jenna out of the ring when the judge was done, I went back to my car sat in the back seat and cried, hugging Jenna until my mom came to find me. My mom and friends all told me that I was fine, that I didn’t do anything wrong, and that they had heard from several other competitors that they were shocked the judge had yelled at me. Upon later discussion of that event, we learned that judge simply wasn’t fond of kids.


Those have to be my top 5 most uncomfortable moments in the sport, and unforgettable moments that will stick with me forever. But now I realize that they were not bad moments and they were certainly not the end of the world. Just things that I had to learn to be okay with. 

Thursday, May 23, 2013

Half-Assed.

Half-assed [haf-ast] adjective:  refers to having a desired goal while consciously choosing not to put in the necessary effort to actually achieve it.

The difference between try and triumph is a little umph.


It’s one thing to say you have dreams; it’s another to say you are trying to achieve your dreams. Yet it is an entirely different thing to actually achieve them. The fragile line between these three stages is broken with effort. It isn’t enough to half-ass your way to your goals, if anything you need to get your ass in gear.  No if, ands, or butts about it. If you want to achieve your goals you won’t just try. You won't crack under pressure. You won't assume you can do it. You'll put effort behind everything you do...and you’ll excel. 





Friday, May 17, 2013

Flawed.

There will always be people in the world who tell you that you can’t. They say you aren't good enough, they remind you of your flaws…but what these people forget to mention is that you can. That you might not be good enough yet, but those flaws you fight are what will make you great. They focus on the negative, not realizing your true potential...and sometimes they can make you forget that you have potential. 

I’d love to say that you should just ignore them, that the words have no truth to them. But realistically I can’t, I can say I’ve been there though. I’ve watched my videos at home, and heard people in the background talking about my handling…or how pathetic my dog is…or wondering why I’m even doing agility with them. This being one of the reason I started putting music to my videos 3 years ago. The funny thing is, after being angry for a bit, it just made me sad. Not because those people said what they did, but because they were so hopelessly focused on my flaws that I doubt they could even see their own…. I knew, at least, that I was working on my problems.

Funny thing about progress, you have to know where to start to make the first step in the right direction.

 I've never claimed to have perfect handling, or to have a perfect dog(s). So of course we have flaws, but we are working on them, constantly improving. And I know that we will never be perfect, and that's okay too. Agility isn't supposed to be perfect, it's messy. There will always be bad runs, or sloppy plans, and there will always be great runs that remind me why I push my handling when I can. Why play it safe every run, when you can learn and grow as a handler? Sure this means a dip in your Q-rate, but I'm sorry, sometimes NQing is just too much fun not to do. 




Two shelties with Q rates well under 100%, and damn proud of it. 


Monday, May 13, 2013

What's the Rush?


The best things in life are unexpected because there were no expectations.

The more of my life I live, the truer this quote becomes. The best surprises in my life have been the ones I did not anticipate. Because sometimes things just happen, and it’s wonderful.  Holding onto expectations simply adds pressure, heightens the highs and lowers the lows…and at least for me, takes away from the feeling of success.

Now I’ll always plan, I’ll always have goals and dreams, but these will remain timeless things. Expectations put time limits on life, leading to the inevitable, expected, failure if you don’t reach your goals “on time”. In agility you truly cannot fail unless you give up completely…and same goes for life. You cannot be a “failure” unless you quit living. You cannot fail unless you choose to do so.  Yet so many people run around like chickens with their heads cut off, trying to do all these things “in time”. Personally I think you've missed the joy of the sport if everything has to happen now, or if you believe this will be your only chance. This isn't a do or die type of game, not in the long run. The journey is for a lifetime so...

What’s the rush?



Friday, May 10, 2013

Whimzical Update: International Team Tryouts


Sometimes I forget, because it’s seems like it’s been a hundred years. A lifetime spent together, a million hikes, a million nights, a million days with each other. But then I remember we are still young. We are still new to one another, still babies on course.  We haven’t quite gotten our feet beneath us, and our toes are just barely dipped into the edge of the lake.

This weekend, each time I walked to the line with Whimzy I was very aware that we were the little fish in a very big pond. Hell, I wasn’t even sure if we could swim yet. I know that Whimzy is only 2, but this weekend she wasn’t the only one on the team who was new to the game, because I’ll be the first to say I’m not a perfect handler. But I could not be more proud of how we did at tryouts. Our mistakes, our little successes, and us managing to keep it together through 5 rounds was amazingly enough a group effort the entire weekend. It wasn’t pretty, it wasn’t perfect, but it taught me more about handling Whimzy then I could have ever learned in my backyard.

I’m not sure what lies ahead for us, I know we are still young and yet I feel like we are already so old. Maybe one day our runs will reflect the connection I know we have, but until then I’ll just be enjoying our messing, on the fly style kind of runs. Because I know it’s just a phase, and that this journey is just barely beginning.  

Tuesday, May 7, 2013

It's Who You Are


Our journey is not forward, or upward, you cannot move backwards. For the journey isn’t a physical thing. 
For a long time I thought it was, and I’m coming to realize more and more that it isn’t where you are, so much as who you are.  

It’s never the glory, it’s never the score, it’s not about seeing who’s less and who’s more.  Cause when you find out how fast and how far, you’ll know it’s not how much you have. It’s who you are.

It isn’t about climbing to the top, it isn’t about winning. The journeys we take, aren’t just about agility… it is a process. While many of our goals are physical, tangible experiences much of our successes happen within. Whether realized or not, each experience, each show, each dog, each run, offers us new material to learn from. The lessons we take from our greatest successes and most heart breaking moments, mold who we will become in the future. No dream is out of reach, we simply have to be brave enough to reach for it. For a journey isn't about getting somewhere, it's about becoming someone you want to be.

Have a dream so big you can never achieve it, and become the person who can. 

Saturday, May 4, 2013

International Team Tryouts: Day 2 Finals

Whimzical's first day at International Team Tryouts was amazing, I can't believe she is only 2 years old. 

Round 1 Jumpers 18" : Finished 11th out of 30 dogs with 5 faults due to a rather heart stopping refusal, at least it was heart stopping for me... But my goal for Miss Whimzy today was to not E (have a wrong course).

Round 2 Standard 18" : Once again 5 faults due to a refusal. Apparently I've over trained backsides of jumps because Whimzy has taken it upon herself to add them to our runs just for fun. Oops?

Cumulative Results of Rounds 1 and 2: 6th place overall, and a spot in 18" Finals.

Finals: 5th place in finals, one bar down, 2nd to last jump.

I honestly can't believe how effortless it felt with whimzy out there. We were far from perfect, but there is just something about coming together with a baby dog that makes every run (clean or not) feel wonderful. My immy-whimmy is finally becoming a big girl. 

Then of course there is Jenna, my "slow" dog, as those of you who know me personally know I used to call her. Oh Jenna...what can I say? As always she was right with me every step of the way, saving my ass when need be, and giving every course 110%. 

Round 1 Jumpers 14" : Clean 9th place out of 30 dogs with 2 seconds worth of time faults.

Round 2 standard 14" : Clean with 2.8 time faults.

Cumulative Results of Rounds 1 and 2: 5th place overall, and a spot in 14" Finals

Finals: 3rd place in finals.

Beyond thrilled with Jenna and Whimzy. Tomorrow is a whole new game, a new day full of new challenges. Mostly I'm just excited to be back out on that floor once again. :) 

Friday, May 3, 2013

International Team Tryouts: Day 1

This is it. Hopkins, Minnesota. May 3-5, AKC International Tam Tryouts. This is my 7th trip to World Team Tryouts, my 4th year competing. And evey year when I step onto the turf (or rather dirt in 2010), I come to the same final realization.

No matter how much training we have done, no matter how many courses we've studied, drills we've trained, miles we've run, how much we are putting on the line this weekend, or how high we set our expectations, regardless of whether we meet our goals or not, when all is said and done... The one thing I'll always know is that I got to run with the best dog(s) I could ever ask for. Because in the end, this weekend doesn't change a thing. It's one competinon, three days, five runs...the dogs we take to the line have nothing to prove, no one to impress, because they brought us here. It isn't the trainer that makes the dog; its the dog that has pushed the trainer to be better.

So really this isn't it....this is far from "it". This is simply another opportunity to push our skills, test our handling, and have fun with our dogs.

Sunday, April 28, 2013

Defying the Odds.


Defying the odds. Overcoming all the obstacles.  Not letting anything or anyone hold you back. Triumphing over challenges and reaching up to snatch your goals right out of the air. To defy the odds means that you are overcoming the obstacles in the way of your dreams. It’s the classic story of the underdog. We've all heard these clichés, and they seem to inspire. Becoming the best “against all odds”, pushing through all the obstacles in your way to come out on top.

But really to view these challenges as obstacles is just wrong. This is a journey, not a battle.

Obstacles are those frightful things you see when you take your eyes off your goal – Henry Ford

They aren't tests to be won, but lessons to be learned from. You cannot conquer your way to your dreams. Rather than simply reaching your dream, become what you've always dreamt of. The “odds” that seem to be against you are simply opportunities waiting to be turned into advantages. Challenges aren't meant to hold you back, but propel you forward. If it doesn't challenge you then it isn't going to change you. You cannot start and end your journey as the same person; change for the better allows us to become the person we've always wanted to be. It allows us to be the best that we can be.

 This process doesn't have to be an uphill battle; instead of defying the odds, use them for improvement.

Thursday, April 25, 2013

Whimzical Update: Dreams




Setting expectations is like putting an expiration date on your dreams.

But dreams only end when you give up on them. It isn’t a matter of timing; they don’t end because you’ve “lost”. In fact I don’t believe you can legitimately lose. Losing is just a fancy way of saying you’ve given up. Every goal is reachable, but you have to be willing to hang in there. If you let go too easily, your dreams will slip away from you.

You cannot rush your dreams.

They take time to develop, and it takes time to reach them. This is why we set goals in the future. But the funny thing about time is that you never really reach the future…the future simply becomes the present.

Have a dream so big you can never achieve it, then become the person who can.

We never reach our dreams either, we become them.



Monday, April 22, 2013

Recycle Success.

A lot of people seem to get caught up in the final results, they seem to connect success with placements and titles and awards. When in reality those things are a byproduct of success. The pride and joys of the sport aren't printed on a sheet, they aren't timed, and the pretty rosettes we collect at the end of the day don’t represent them. Yet some how people tend to focus on only the final artificial product, not the journey. 

The longer I play this sport, the more I think about how the byproducts of success are truly toxic. About how competitors' attitudes can spoil from over exposure...Its a rather scary thought, to know that as you progress you'll come in contact more and more with these pollutants.  But I think with some work this type of results-oriented pollution can be reduced. 

Success should be recycled. 

Constantly in motion, shared in the name of sportsmanship and productive competition. Keeping success bottled up in one person causes it to spoil, it loses its purity. And as a community it's our job to continually challenge one another to keep the sport evolving. We have the ability to plant new seeds, to keep our sport growing in the right direction, without contaminants limiting its existence. 



Keep our sport clean, and our earth too. 
Happy Earth Day. 

Friday, April 19, 2013

Planning Ahead

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Plans are nothing; planning is everything ~Eisenhower

To reach the clouds, you have to climb. Spontaneous jumping only takes you so high, and you fall back to the ground fast. It’s one thing to set a goal, and another to actually reach it. When we say we are on a journey, what do we really mean? Is there a start and a finish, or do we wander aimlessly forever moving forward towards what we perceive as better than before?
 
My journey truly is a never-ending meandering path that takes me gallivanting through the most peculiar of situations and experiences. But that path has always been planned just a few steps ahead.  I know where I’m going, and I *think* I know exactly how to get there… but even if those steps fall through my staircase to the top, I’ll still have something to stand on. It’s not me hacking through the brush one step at a time, fighting past the vines just to see what’s ahead.

Planning ahead might not always work out exactly as expected, but it’s better to have a plan then throw yourself blindly into the future. Even with all the steps, and goals, and breaking down of dreams in the end we aren’t taking a journey at all. The journey is sweeping us along, our control is so limited in terms of the future because we can only effect what happens today, what happens now. 

...but then again, the smallest things today can make the biggest difference tomorrow.

Saturday, April 6, 2013

The Bright Side.

It's really easy to see the flaws with a run, and it's really easy to know where you faulted on any given run. But on any given run it isn't the big things that go wrong that matter, it's all the little things that go right that make even the ugliest of NQs some of the most important runs you'll ever have. Those little moments will always out weigh any fault I ever incur, because its one thing to Q in the ring, but to get back exactly what you've been training in the ring. Wow. What a fantastic feeling. 


Granted, sometimes it is hard to pull the good out of runs. But there is always something, you just have to find it. Just pick out 3 small, maybe what seem to be insignificant successes out of each run. Those three little things, help a lot. They remind you that no matter how bad it was, shit could have been a lot worse. That while you might not have Q'd or gotten exactly what you wanted, you still got something, anything out of the run. And its those little somethings that overtime evolve into real improvement. 

And if your really feeling sad, just smile and remember that somewhere in this world there's an idiot pulling a door that says "PUSH".