Expectations...

The wobbling uncertainty towered high with experience, confidence, knowledge, and at the very bottom tiny teetering amounts of reality and doubt, constantly threatening to topple over the self-crafted skyscraper of dreams. Foundations ready to crumble, feeling like you are just below the clouds and realizing that it could all fall out from under you in an instant. So you set your expectations low. Stay safe, protect your dreams.  Yet…safe doesn’t win. Safe doesn’t take you to the top, it keeps you in the middle of the pack. But taking a risk, planning to go for it all, means your fall is twice as hard.

For a long time I never knew how to set expectations. I wanted to do well, but at the same time I knew something could go wrong so I kept them low. Let me tell you something about low expectations, they aren’t fun to achieve because you only set them as high as you have achieved in the past. No improvement required. So how do you set yourself up for improvement and goals worth accomplishing, without risking it all on a day dream that can be shattered in an instant? Expectations set too high are damaging, yet too low are useless. So pick both. Shoot for the top, but understand and accept that you can fail. That your goals may not be reached. That you may screw up royally.

So this weekend I’m expecting to win and lose. Place first and NQ in every round. To be the fastest and the one with the most faults. I’m okay with both, and that really is a wonderful freedom to have going into a big competition. Now we just have to let the chips fall where they may. 

Orlando here we come! ~Kathleen and the Heart Lake girls <3